Somehow I need to separate my SAP and my intent to blog. I’ve smooshed them together in my head by way of “killing two birds with one stone.” The result has not been good.

Rather than spending free, easy-flow early mornings with God, I’m “writing.” Instead of pouring out my heart in prayer, I’m editing for readers. And afterward, when I read through what I’ve written, it doesn’t ring true enough to publish anyway. Because it isn’t.

I have other excuses too. There’s the busyness of life, the shortness of Minnesota summers, 4th of July at the cabin, and grandkids that grow up too fast. There’s volunteer work, parties and friends that I love. I’m full of excuses. And yet I’m convinced that God has called me to something more.


2 Corinthians 1:4: “He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”


I believe that God has brought me through to the other side of a few major life hiccups so that I can do exactly that—bring the comfort He gave me to others in need. That’s the purpose for having started this web site in the first place. It’s finally up and running, and now my excuses runneth over. Why am I suddenly frozen?


Oh Father, what is wrong with me? Please erase my excuses, calm my fears, give me the right words and the right heart to bless others as You’ve blessed me. Help me focus. Make me brave. Amen.

What do you do when frozen by uncertainty?


  • Am I the only blog reader that does not know the meaning of the acronym SAP. I know SAP is a big software company but doubt that is what Mary is referring to!

    • You are right, Russ: It’s not that kind of SAP! It’s the spiritual journaling process of Scripture -> Application -> Prayer. This will probably all make a little more sense now 🙂

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