This is what happens when I procrastinate.
I never finished the pandemic project I’d begun a year ago, so I was bound and determined to tackle it to completion this time around. I wanted to get my basement cleaned up, with all of the memorabilia, photos and history from “the olden days” sorted, organized, and their stories written before the world reopened.
But just like in April 2020, I quickly became overwhelmed. So I’ve allowed other “urgent” matters to distract me—must-dos, but mostly more-fun-to-dos. Planning events and vacations and cabin season. Calling friends, starting diets, shopping for things I don’t need. Face-Times and Zooms, getting together with family, helping a friend make remodeling decisions. Reading books, rearranging furniture, even cleaning ceiling lights. Banking, writing, Googling—doing anything other than facing the task at hand.
There was—as there always will be—“just one more thing.”
I’ve found that to be true in my spiritual life as well. My practice of starting out each day with a deep dive into God’s Word sometimes doesn’t get accomplished till mid afternoon because of just one more phone call, one more email, one more text; one more shiny thing to take me off course.
Yet through it all, I sense God calling to me, drawing me in to spend time with Him.
1 Samuel 3:10: “And the Lord came and called as before, “Samuel! Samuel!” And Samuel replied, “Speak, your servant is listening.”
Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we actually heard a big, booming voice from heaven each time God had something to say? Who wouldn’t respond as Samuel eventually did once he learned that it was God Himself calling?
Sometimes it works like that, though God’s voice usually comes to me as a quiet nudge, with an occasional hard knock reminding me to rethink my priorities, to put my relationship with Him first.
Father, thank You for reminding me this afternoon that it’s never too late—in a day, or in a life—to sink into Your loving arms. Thank You for showing me again that I am in control of how I spend my time, and that setting aside my to-do list and quieting my mind chatter as I come to You is always the perfect next step. Thank You for guiding me into the best path forward, for being my light in darkness.
Speak, Lord: Your servant is listening. Amen.