I’ve waited months to write this goodbye post. Not months of intentionality; just time in which to loop-de-loop to this place of peace over closing down SeekingToFind.org.
My web guy quit, but that’s just my excuse. The truth is I’ve come full circle, shared a bit of my heart through a few of my daily essentials, and made it all the way through a ten-year reset (my 2021 WOY) to this place of immense gratitude and abundant blessing.
Over the last year of my reset, I’ve:
- Let go
- Reached out
- Taken risks
- Lightened up
- Dug deeper
- Started fresh…again
- and so much more.
However, I’ve also had to eat crow as recently as yesterday—needing to ask forgiveness for still being a snarky know-it-all. As is obvious to everyone who knows me, I have a long way to go toward becoming the woman God created me to be.
So I will carry on and I hope you will too by continuing this journey of seeking to find through the daily practice of Scripture —> Application —> Prayer (SAP):
Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”
I never sought out God’s will until my mid-forties because I didn’t think I needed to: I believed that merely following the rules of the church I’d grown up in had set me on the right path. It wasn’t until my world fell apart that I began truly seeking to find the Lord. That’s when my journey began, and what a ride it has been!
In late 2010, my seeking moved to the next level with this notion of starting my days with “SAP”–quieting my mind chatter and just oozing into God.
As I’ve since learned often happens when we begin not just believing in but doing our best to obey God, the road I was traveling became rocky. My spiritual journey shifted into high gear as I was forced to trust and rely on Him alone. I learned that when I come to the Father with an open, humble heart, He speaks to me every time. Not always giving me the answers I want, and definitely not adhering to my timeline, but step by step…His way, His timing. Over the years I’ve seen proof again and again that He hears every prayer and is working each of them out in the way He knows will be best in the long run.
Oh Lord, I thank You more than I can ever say for always being with me, for always giving me answers when I slow down and come to You in prayer. Thank You for teaching me how to listen and respond to Your will when mine is still fighting for center stage.
And thank You for bringing to mind another old song in this moment—Rich Mullin’s Step by Step—one that sunk into my soul before I ever even knew that it was You I’d been searching for throughout my entire, messy life.
So I pray that song now for myself, for my kids and grandkids, for my friends and for everyone reading this last post: that we will continue to seek and follow You in love, trust and gratitude.
I will seek You in the morning
And I will learn to walk in Your ways
And step by step You’ll lead me
And I will follow You all of my days
It’s in Jesus’ name that I pray all this, Father. Amen.
One last thing before I close this up:
Have you chosen your 2022 Word-of-the-Year (WOY) yet?
Mine came to me last fall and has stuck ever since, making me confident that it is the right focus for me in the upcoming year:
It’s an easy word to toss around, but a tough one to live out. Because glorifying God isn’t about the yadayada. According to the simple definition provided by Pastor Todd Olson of First Evangelical Free Church, it’s about
Accurately representing Christ to the world
Yikes. That’s a big ask, isn’t it?
So as you continue along your own spiritual journey, please pray for me and for our world—that we will seek Him in the morning and learn to walk in His ways, so that step by step He’ll lead us, and we will follow Him all of our days.
Over and out with love,