Have you ever messed up and then begged God to undo whatever bad thing you just did?
A month ago I did just that. Instead of beginning my day by oozing into God, I deviated to sin.
Oh, not a big or interesting sin, but one that I repeat with regularity: Impatience. I impulsively leaped when I should have hit pause. Instead, I hit Send. And as soon as I did, I knew I’d made a mistake. I’d not only leapt to what was most probably an invalid conclusion, I then acted on it.
That’s what happens when I start out my day with emails instead of God.
Immediately afterward, in a panic and having nowhere else to turn, I journaled like crazy and then sent up this prayer:
So Father, I know this is ridiculous, but You already know what I’m thinking so I might as well say it: Can You please just reverse the whole thing? Somehow give me a do-over? I know that all I can do at this point is to ask for You to forgive me and to help me make amends. Still, please just let this blow over, Lord!
The crazy thing is, I believe He did. Whether my note was lost, overlooked or graciously ignored by its receiver, I received immediate confirmation that all was well.
Seriously?! Does God respond so quickly and forgivingly to even our dumbest prayers? Did I just get a do-over? Or was it mere “coincidence?”
Psalm 139:4-5: “You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head.”
God knew what I was going to do before I did it. He let me have my own impatient way, and then He blessed me anyway. It doesn’t always happen like that, but in this case, I am so very grateful. Because if the Lord answers such ridiculous prayers as the one I panic-prayed on February 5th, I can be completely confident that He’s answering all of my “good” prayers as well—in His way, perfectly timed for maximum benefit.
Lord, I am so comforted by this passage, by all of Psalm 139. You know everything about me—what I’m thinking, where my heart is, when I’m going to impulsively say or send something I shouldn’t. You’ve enlightened me, saved me, blessed me, and loved me so much; by this time in my life I should be making only good choices that glorify You. Yet I still sin regularly, and most of the time You allow me to suffer and learn from the natural consequences of the bad choices I make. But not this time. This time You gave me a do-over, keeping Your hand of blessing firmly on my head even as I messed up. You forgive me over and over for the same stupid sins, and turn even bad things into good.
Lord, I am so grateful for Your amazing grace. Thank You. Amen.